8/2/11

"And if i ever catch the ones who hurt you. I, I'm hoping that God looks away this time."

Dear World,

When someone says "let's just be friends"....there stupid! that's like keeping your dog after it died...who does that? blah.

These scars i have on my wrists and legs...just prove people like you exist. Even if most of my scars have faded and some are barely visible...you'll never understand how hard it is to fight to not do it again and sometimes...you lose that fight. I haven't cut...in awhile...and im proud of that...because there have been so many times where i was about to...but i have to fight myself about that...have some self control...i don't want to end up back in palmetto....trust me. i really don't. but sometimes i just get so sad....and not for no reason...there's plenty of reasons....my dad, my mom always yelling at me, my sister telling me she wants me to die, nick giving up on me and not caring anymore (it's hard because he was ALWAYS there through it all...i always had him to lean on...now i don't), mean people and there rude comments, ect. but i TRY so HARD to not resort to old habits....i do.

Letting go may be a hard thing to do...hell it will probably be one of the most hardest things i do...but im determined to do it. i don't need mean and uncaring people in my life...i really don't. And one day nick will want me, miss me, even love me.....i just won't feel the same way...not ever again.

here's some advice to everybody. Don't love something to much. It will eventually disappoint you.

-Sierra