7/31/11

What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger

Dear World,

well, today i went through one of the most hardest things of my life. not the hardest...just one of them. but im okay. im getting stronger. im trying so hard. and its working. im over it. nick means nothing to me. he's dating kaitlyn. i am done caring. what does he mean to me anymore? nothing. why should i be put through more hurt. just because of some asshole guy? i shouldn't. well atleast i think i shouldn't. I could have been the bigger person about the situation but i didn't want to. i said bump that i want to express myself freely so i hated on kaitlyn and nick. atleast im not going behind people's backs. i say it straight up. and nick if your reading this...leave me alone okay? i don't need you in my life nor do i want you in my life. call me any name you want to..i dare you. i just won't care. what you say means NOTHING to me. your like a blade of grass.....theirs millions of them....i step on alot of them...not all...just alot...and your one of the ones i just stepped on. i hate you. 

I just realized that im happy without you. i was HAPPY when i wasn't talking to you. you know what though...i hope your reading this because i want you to feel the pain i felt when you gave me your spectacular news. you don't even know how i felt. let me just tell you the story of my life today. i went to church....got a stupid text from you saying "im dating kaitlyn now..." i literally ran from church to the bathroom and cried...almost threw up and passed out...i couldn't freakin breathe. fuck you nick. fuck you! but im okay now. you've showed me what your really like. an asshole. a liar. you don't deserve me nick. you don't. i hope you one day realize though that i never lied to you about how i felt about you. you did. 

the only thing that cheered me up today was i went shopping! yay for shopping! it makes everything better. oh and btw nick....i blocked you on facebook/formspring. and your family. i want nothing to do with you. oh and that like necklace you gave me from christmas....from zales....i think im gonna throw it in the ocean. and burn your shirt, cards, gifts. it will most definitely will help. man i sound like a bitch. i am. :]

thanks though...you gave me what i needed...a push from you...so now i can move on so much easier. im already halfway there. maybe even more than halfway! if you ask me if i regret dating you though...i'd say no...you taught me how to love....and now taught me how to stop and let go. so thanks. but you can still go to hell :]

-Sierra